WISH COME TRUE

If you ever get to read this letter, I want you to know that one of my biggest wishes is just about to come true. I’m not writing to you as a fanatic fan, but someone who tries to understand why I feel so much fascination, so much of something for your series. My name is Kerstin. I live in Austria, close to Graz, where Mr. Schwarzenegger comes from. My hometown is surrounded by big mountains which really don’t make it easy to come over to you.
In this letter I’d like to tell you my story. The story of the day I nearly met the "X-Files" crew, the incredible story searching for all of you…
Can you imagine searching for someone you have never met? Can you imagine searching for something you will never get?
It all started with my grandma in '93, watching TV. She was totally into mystery. So when I was 9 years old I first saw David and Gillian on TV, not the kind of TV show a 9-year-old should watch or see -- but from that moment throughout my life they have affected me -- and now I’m 23. I told my father, ‘One day I’ll meet the crew and David Du-kof-ni,” but he just said `Sure` and smiled at me. Talking to all of you was my biggest wish, so I started studying English. My English was perfect when I turned 10 and I became the youngest "X-Files" fan and started making up my plan. I had saved all my money for a flight to Vancouver, I wanted to sneak out from home and meet you undercover. But unfortunately there was no travel agency selling a ticket to the 10 year-old-me. I would have missed school for a week, but I was such a good student, so missing school for you didn’t really bother me. When I think back of my brilliant plan today, I know that it was crazy, regarding the fact what could have happened to me.
So I filled out 5,856 game cards to win a meeting with the crew on the "X-Files" set, but unfortunately I didn’t make it, there were those 2 (f***) girls from Germany handing this (f***) Golden Otto over to Gil and David. When I heard that you were moving to L.A., my brilliant plan was dashed away and I had to start from the beginning, researching everything about L.A. When I was 12, I wrote my first "X-Files" episode and sent it out to Chris and Fox Studios. Two months later, I got a letter, which made me so happy, unfortunately my script was returned to me…
In '98, when I turned 14 I began to pray and somehow managed to get to the USA. I only got as far as Tennessee, can’t tell where I had been but I watched the "X-Files" movie on the big screen! On my way back I changed my flight, which saved my life, cause the SwissAir on which I was supposed to be, crashed in New York and burst into the sea. It was such a big shock for my family, they’d never ever let go off me.
In '99, however, when I was 15 I made my way and finally flew to L.A.!!!!
I spent five weeks in this incredible city searching for you. I visited all the "X-Files" movie locations and it was overwhelming. I visited the Unocal building, even went to the desert. I went to Bakersfield, California City, and Soledad Canyon. I visited the Beverly Hilton and sneaked into the International ballroom, sat down at one of those tables and felt like I was at the Golden Globes. I rented a limousine and, pretending to be a VIP, the guards let me pass to get inside the Fox Studios. I looked for you around the stages, but still, there was no sign of you. I really didn’t have a clue, but that night I was standing in front of David’s house in Malibu. It was such a great feeling, knowing that I wasn’t dreaming. Can you imagine being so close to your very dream? So real, dramatic and so thrilling like a movie-scene? And in this very moment all I got to see was David’s car driving away from me!
My host mum took pictures of me as proof, because when I look at them now, it appears to me as if this incredible journey had never happened to me.
It was all so amazing and I couldn’t believe I had to leave the States so early.
A week after I had left and I was at home, my host mum called me on the phone. Well, she was an actress, too, and a week after I left, she and her daughter were called by the "X-Files" crew (!!) to take a picture for a scene in “The Sixth Extinction” for you. In that episode Mulder’s holding this photo in his hand while talking to that elder man. So you’ve met my host mum and she spent a day behind the scenes and it all just seems so ironic and absurd to me.
Can you imagine spending all your life on this quest? An inner wish so strong, so real, no time left for a rest?
In 2001, I spent my holiday –- guess where –- in the middle of L.A. I was looking out for you guys again, but all I got to see was Robin Williams driving along with me, but honestly in this affair –- does anybody care??
I want to thank you so much for this great inspiration in my life. You have turned these two characters into something so special and you really made it complete. It’s amazing how fast time goes by. Gillian was my age when you all started shooting and now you’re all so … old! I mean, I’m old because now I’m 23, nearly married and my man keeps telling me “You’re so crazy, will you never give up that dream?” and I said “No” -- now he’s coming to the London premiere with me!!! So you all may be older –- we may be older, but it won’t stop here, we’ll be out there, if you ever care. I’m not writing to you as a fan, but someone who tries to understand why I feel so much inspiration, so much of something without explanation. I can’t explain, it is my greatest wish –- still I can’t hide and when we finally meet at the "X-Files" premiere, remember me and remember us, when you’ll be taking a picture with me!
Kerstin
Styria, Austria