Thursday, May 08, 2008

HOPE

I recently went to New York City for a business trip and conveniently also found the time to visit the ComicCon, which was wonderful since you gave us so much of your time and were so patient and friendly throughout the whole autograph signing and the Q&A session. And back home I now just remembered your and Chris Carter’s words that you sometimes asked yourselves whether it was all worth it. And how you said you wanted to give the fans a message of hope. I can assure you it was all worth it. And your show has always been my ultimate source of hope.
I’ve been an X-Phile for over 13 years now. I became an X-Phile around the time when my grandmother died, when I was 14 and when the world was turning upside down.
All that I am today is the result of what I was born with, what my family gave me and what "The X-Files" taught me. In some way you can say "The X-Files" had a somewhat religious influence on my life.
Your stories, your characters, your imagination opened my mind. They taught me that you need to believe in something to get through life and that there are many approaches to the truth, for there are many truths. And that it didn’t matter whether you believed in God alone, or in science, or just in yourself as long as you believed in love, too.
Your show taught me skepticism, it taught me to ask questions and how to approach them from different sides. It made me hungry as I was so thrilled by the intellectual minds and the complexity of the characters that were at work in this show on-screen as well as off-screen. Within a year I found myself studying harder and harder in school, getting better and better grades and learning more and more about the world. I then pursued a career in medicine and am now a doctor.
And I give you my thanks for that, as there have been many points in my life when I thought I wasn’t going to be able to make it, especially in those unstable, troubled times of adolescence. But the pure fact that there was a new episode out there every week gave me all the stability I needed to rely on, as we live in a world where to many teenagers there is no constant, nothing to hold on to. But I simply put on one of my favorite episodes (thank you for “Jose Chung’s from Outer Space”) or wrote a piece of fanfiction --  when I was really desperate -- and life felt OK again after that.
So thanks to you I never needed a religion, I am a perfectly happy atheist and all I believe in is the human mind with all its good sides and its dark ones. And it was your minds that created this show and that prove that deep inside we are all the same, because we all are looking for answers out there, we all just want to be loved for what we are because we all need to know that we are okay the way we are. We all want to understand or at least cope with the absurdity life carries within itself. It was "The X-Files" that made us all feel less alone with our fears, that gave us faith that there is always hope out there as long as there is someone willing to believe in it.
I can truly say that you have enriched my life in so many ways and that you can definetely think of yourselves as the gods of your own universe with its own constants where I just love to escape to whenever I need a break from this crazy world.
Even if I don’t watch the episodes any more, and even if all the posters are gone from my walls, even if I gave my fan collectibles away, somewhere inside my mind, there’s always a tiny little basement office reserved for Mulder and Scully.
So I thank you for all the work hours and all of yourselves that you poured into the show to make it come to life over and over again. I guess you have no idea how many souls you saved in all those years and not only by making this movie. I'm just glad I found the opportunity to express this and have the chance that you might even read it one day.
Nathalie
Germany